Anah’s pov

“Get up, loser!” I heard yells from left and right. I struggled to stand back up to my feet. My body aches from the half-transformation. Every time I try to shift into my wolf form, it happens so slowly and ends before I even begin so I’m not shocked I am called a loser, apparantly, it’s what I truly am.

I was finally on both feet when I heard the training instructor demand,

“Again!” His voice is loud and audible like he would torture me if I don’t do as told. I licked my lips and positioned myself again, one leg behind and one leg forward. I shut my eyes as I bit the left side of my lips hoping to get it this time.

My eyes squeezed shut and my teeth sunk deep into my lip, I waited for something, anything at all

“Come on…” I murmured to my wolf who has always disappointed. Just like her owner, she is a f*ck*ng weakling

“Get the f*ck out of the training ground!” I heard someone yell along with a hit on my head

“Ouch!” My eyes flew open and my hand reached for the spot where the stone had hit. I could already feel the bump there. I hissed in pain when I touched the spot.

“What was that for?!” I whined and saw three girls jump on the training ground.

“That’s for being an idiot and a time waster. Now, get out of here so we can train. Don’t you get it that you are wolfless?” Jane, the leader of the girl's gang spat

“I will transform, I just need a little bit of practice” I whispered but the other girl beside Jane chuckled,

“Don’t you get tired of saying this? You sound like a broken record”

“For someone whose only job is to warm the Alpha’s bed, I don’t know what you wish to use your wolf for. Is not like the Alpha will f*ck your wolf” Jane said staring at her fingernails. Her minors burst into laughter causing me to s*ck in my lower lip.

“I… I… I Have used for my wolf, I’m a full-breed werewolf” I murmured. I didn’t know if I was convincing her or reassuring myself.

“You’re a wolf-less wolf. Say it” she said and grabbed a handful of my hair.

“Ah, Sir! Sir Nelson!” I screamed to get the trainer’s attention but all he could say was,

“Get out of the training ground, Anah”

Tears swelled up in my eyes when Jane’s grip around my hair got tighter as she pulled me out of the training ground and I followed like a puppet, crying.

She threw me to the ground,

“Poor soul, don’t worry, in your next life, come strong” Jane and her friends chuckled as they intentionally kicked the sand on my body before heading to the training ground. I could hear the laughter of the other pack members as they laughed at me.

On the ground, I watched them transform within seconds, they roared and turned to face me. Even in their wolf form, I could see the smirk on their faces. How come it's so easy for them and not for me? While the girls clapped at them, the boys whistled,

“Get up, Anah, and don’t be a lazy *ss.” Sir Nelson said. Just as I was about to get up, someone called,

“Anah, the Alpha seeks your presence this minute”

I quickly jumped to my feet and turned to see one of the pack house guards.

“Awwn, the Alpha’s dog is being called by the Alpha. Go and attend to the Alpha, you rat” I heard someone yell from the crowd.

This wasn’t the first time I was receiving insults like this, yet I couldn’t get used to it. I still cannot do anything to do other than cry which the Alpha will hit me if he finds out I did.

All this happened when my father couldn’t complete a mission he promised the Alpha he would complete. So Alpha Jethro took me as a complete settlement. Neither my mother nor my father could do anything about it. They were at least glad that I was still alive.

Things wouldn’t have been this hard if the moon goddess had not made a grave mistake by making me his mate. Alpha Jethro found out on our first night. Because of that, he made sure to hurt me and continued to speak badly about me. No one knows I am his mate and he had strictly warned me not to utter a word. I was dragged to the servant’s quarters where I began to live. I wasn’t living the life of a servant, I was worse, I was a bondservant to Alpha Jethro. He makes me work all day, I became his personal cook and exhausts my body all night. He is the true definition of a living and walking devil.

Even as I walked to his chamber which wasn’t obviously the first time, my heart was still racing and my fingers trembling. My footsteps could be hardly heard like I was walking on air.

I knocked on the door twice when I heard him growl,

“Come in, Anah” his senses were heightened, not only because he was the Alpha but because I was his mate. He could scent me from afar off.

I slowly opened the door and stepped in,

“Good afternoon, Alpha” he waved his left hand at me while he was working on his horny self. He waved his hand again and I began to strip off my clothes knowing exactly what he wanted.

I dare not let him repeat himself.

I was completely bare before him and I watched as he ran his eyes slowly on my naked body. I bit my lip and waited for his order.

“Come Anah” he smiled. A small smile crept on my face, and my heart was filled with joy as I walked towards him. This is the only time he smiles at me. This is the only time he appreciates me even if it was only my body. I couldn't resist the attraction because of the mate bond, it was mixed feelings when it comes to him.

I made my way to him and he roughly pulled me by the wrist and I fell on the bed. The next minute, he was hovering over me.

CHAPTER 2

“Anah, the Alpha wants to see you in the throne room,” A guard said to me while I was drying some clothes that I had just finished washing outside. No matter what the case may be, hearing the Alpha’s name caused my heart to race.

After last night sex, as always, he insulted me and made me look like a fool as he chased me out of his chamber. I had been trying to avoid him but I can't because he craved my body everyday.

I dropped all I was doing and made my way to the throne room with a racing heart. The guard escorted me to the throne room, making me wonder why we weren't going to his room but the throne room. My heart race increased as I bowed at the guards at the door before stepping into the large space.

There were some men in the throne room but before them, I saw Alpha Jethro sitting on the large chair in front of the hall, facing the door I had just walked through.

I hastened my steps when his eyes met mine, everyone's gaze was on me as I made my way silently to stand before the Alpha, I bowed,

“Good morning, my Lord,” I bowed with both my hands behind me.

He ignored my greeting but I refused to raise my head up as it was better to look at the ground than his face whether he was angry or not.

“Your trainer, Nelson said you haven't improved any bit in your training. What do you have to say to that?”

My heart only beat louder, and my head slowly raised up to look at Sir Nelson who was standing at the other end from where I was standing but we were both facing the Alpha.

“Alpha, I… I… I am trying”

“Trying!” He yelled so loudly that I stumbled backward in shock. His eyes were shooting daggers at me.

“What is there that you cannot do? You are still at level one in your training when others are at level twelve. What do I do with you, you weakling?” He asked.

“If not that your parents were full-blooded wolves I would have doubted your identity. Where is your fucking wolf?!” He roared at me. Tears rolled down my eyes not knowing what to reply to him.

“I... I am sorry…” I murmured

“Make sure she transforms today! Do whatever you have to!” Alpha Jethro ordered and signaled that I would be taken away from the throne room.

What does he want them to do to me? What other way can one shift?

I was dragged to the Pack square,

“Why are you taking me here? What did I do wrong? I…I… please—”

“Shut up!” Sir Nelson said from behind me. When I turned to him, I saw some people beside him, people I never wanted to see especially when I was in this situation.

Oh goddess, what is this? I asked inwardly as I watched them laugh at me. My training mates. They all stood in a circle while I stood in the middle of the circle.

“The Alpha has instructed us to do everything we can to make sure she transforms and through research, we have heard that pain causes a once shy or scared wolf to surface” Nelson announced and my heart jumped to my mouth.

They were going to inflict pain on me!

“We are going to be flogging Anah with a chain till she finally transforms,” My eyes widened as I struggled to leave the grip of the two guards.

“No, no! Please don't, I can't take it. Please!” I cried but my voice was swallowed up by the scream of the people.

I shook my head desperately, pleading and begging but was ignored. I began to pray to the moon goddess desperately. I cannot face that kind of pain, I would die.

I was dragged to a bench where I was held, I struggled and struggled to get off their grip, they were two strong men. They made me lie on the bench and I burst into tears even before I was flogged.

My eyes landed on Jane who had a wide smile on her face. She winked at me when she saw me staring at her. No…

The first chain landed on my back and screamed so loud, that my stomach clenched as I couldn't bear the pain. My throat tightened and I almost fell off the bench but was held by the guards.

Another landed on my back and felt my back soaked with blood. The next wipe that landed on my back, I embraced darkness as I couldn't take it anymore.

The next time my eyes opened was to a guard pouring a bucket of water on me. I gasped for air before looking around, I saw Alpha Jethro sitting on the mini pool,

“You may leave,” he said to the guard and the man walked out. I was in his bathroom.

“So you do not want to shift and you claim you're my mate. You want to carry my child and you cannot transform. Tell me what kind of a weakling you are?”

I gulped, my throat was dried and I was too weak to even speak.

“You aren't even healing on time. Who knows if that's why you haven't carried one of my seeds yet? You're too weak, and so is your womb,” he muttered. I said nothing even though I knew that was a lie.

I could carry a child and that was for sure.

“Get out of here,"

I struggled to get to my feet before bowing to him, I was already close to the door when he said,

“Stop”

I paused in my tracks.

“Come and perform the only duty you can do in this life before you get out,” I gulped before walking back to him. My body was arching and I didn't know if I could manage. There was no room for excuse. He would rather I die trying than not trying at all.

“Get in, lazy bitch!” He roared at me and stepped into the mini pool.

CHAPTER 3

Bam!

The loud noise caused me to jump from my bed, as I snapped my eyes towards the door. The headache that hit me was as if the door collided with my head instead of the wall.

“You!” I saw Beta Erisia walk into the room and landed me a very hot slap that caused me to fall off the bed completely.

My hand flew to cover my cheeks, as tears rolled down my cheeks, I was tired.

“Ma'am,” even with the pain, I struggled to stand to my feet. My voice choked up,

“How dare you ignore when I sent for you yesterday?” She asked as she dragged one of my ears, ready to cut it off. Her nails dug into it.

“Ma, I was with the Alpha,” another slap landed on my cheek, and she kicked me causing me to fall back on the bed.

But I wasn't lying, Alpha Jethro didn't let me leave even after we left the bathroom. I had thought I would black out after the long sex but I didn't and was able to drag my legs to my room when he was done with me.

She should know better that I wasn't lying. Everyone in this pack knows that I was Alpha Jethro's sex toy, why was she beating me up for it?

“Get up, you barren bitch!” My ear rang at her insults as I stood to my feet. I didn't get my balance before she dragged me out of the servant's quarters to the main packhouse like a criminal.

We passed the training ground and I saw some of the pack members who were still training to laugh at me as I passed with Erisia who was pulling me with her.

I got to the pack house and she pulled me to her room before asking,

“Where are my jewelry?”

I snapped my eyes from the room to her face,

“Your jewelry, ma?” I asked and she pushed my head with her palm,

“Yes, my jewelry. The ones I asked you to clean a week ago,”

“Ma'am, I cleaned them and dropped them back in the box” I explained but before I could completely speak, I received a resounding slap, I didn't recover from that when my left eye was covered with another slap.

My nose began to bleed,

“Ma'am, please…” I was feeling weak and dizzy. I knew I would pass out so I begged her with the last strength I had left. Also because I hadn't eaten since the previous day, my stomach was screaming in pain

“Thief! What do you do with my jewelry? You sold it? Answer me!” She kicked me and punched me and I fell on my face.

“Please… please…” I kept whispering as I struggled to creep out of the room but she kept dragging me back with my legs and pounding on me.

What did I do? I know absolutely nothing about the jewelry. If this is the day the moon goddess wants to take me and add me to her host of angels, then I'm gladly giving up my spirit. And with a smile, I closed my eyes and embraced death.

As if the moon goddess was not on my side, I slowly opened my eyes to hear the beeping of something. I looked around to see myself in a hospital room.

Oh shit. I thought I was dead, I had embraced it.

As if I was being monitored, a doctor entered a few seconds later,

“Good evening, Anah,”

“Good evening doctor Mariam”

She has treated me so many times because of the beating I had received from the pack members.

“How are you feeling?” She asked me and I nodded before struggling to swallow. She saw this and handed me over a glass of water.

“You have to eat,” she said to me and someone brought some food. I struggled to sit and ate quietly, blaming and cursing the moon goddess for not just taking my life. There was absolutely nothing to live for.

“I must confess, you're a very strong woman,” Doctor Mariam spoke making me chuckle. I didn't mean to but I couldn't help it. She's telling this to someone who faints at every little beating, someone who cannot heal fast, someone that her mates and people younger than her beat. Someone who cannot even transformed.

“Why are you laughing?” She smiled as she asked and I shrugged,

“All my twenty-two years of living, I have never heard anyone call me a strong woman before,” I shook my head, tears swelled in my eyes as I whispered in a choked voice, “I'm not strong, I'm a lazy ass, weak and wolfless”

“That's not what your pup says,” she said causing my hand holding a spoon to pause in the air

“What did you just say, doctor?”

“You're carrying the Alpha's pup and for you to receive that kind of a beating and still not lose the baby, means you are the strongest woman I have ever seen”

The rest of the words didn't make sense to me except the part where she said I was carrying the Alpha's pup.

I jumped from the bed and on my feet before I held the doctor by both hands,

“You're not lying?” I asked her and she rolled her eyes,

“Why would I lie about the Alpha's pup? I was going to tell him but he hasn't shown up since you were admitted here. For two days now and no one has come to check up on you”

“Ahhhh!” I screamed in excitement before pulling the doctor into my embrace,

“I'm pregnant?” And she nodded with a smile.

“Can I have the test results? I'll inform the Alpha myself. This is good news. He would be so pleased” I said to the doctor.

This is all Alpha Jethro ever wanted. That his mate provides him an heir. Here comes the heir!

“Can I leave now?” I asked the doctor after she passed me the test results. She looked at me, her eyes filled with emotions I didn't understand or care about.

“I don't think you should yet, you should rest a little while longer,”

"Please... I'll be back after informing the Alpha that I'm carrying the heir," I smiled

"Okay..." she whispered unsure and I didn't even finish the food she had given me before I dashed out of the hospital, running back to the pack house.

On getting to the pack, I saw the trainees on the training ground, I didn't bother to stop even when they ordered me to. I ignored them and ran into the pack house.

I made my way to the Alpha's chamber with the test result in my hand. Alpha Jethro would finally love me, care for me, and adore my baby. I was pregnant.

I opened the door without knocking as I was too excited only to freeze like a statue. My eyes couldn't believe what I was seeing in front of me.

“Get the fuck out of my room!” Alpha Jethro yelled but I remained rooted there. Not because I didn't want to obey him but because I was so stunned that my brain couldn't interpret his words.

“Jethro… Uhm… ah” The moan continued to fill the room and my ears.

Alpha Jethro only went faster, his back facing me as he drove into her, enjoying every bit of it. I had seen that look time and time again when he was riding me.

The test result fell off my hand as I looked at my mate fucking beta Erisia in front of me. I had left for only two days and… or has this been going on? I thought I was the only one. Even if there was another, I never expected it to be beta Erisia.

I thought they were just Alpha and Beta, who would have thought?

“You want to see? Fine, see!” He spat through gritted teeth. He pulled her by the waist further towards him and slammed hard into her. Beta Erisia moaned loud, ringing all over the room. I felt my skin peel in irritation and pain.

I raced my hand to my chest to smoothen the pain but nothing was working. The pain was only getting hurt.

“Ah uhmmm” Beta Erisia moaned in pleasure. This is the worst day of my life.

My wolf for the first time growl in pain, I could feel my heart shattering, it was like my heart was held in my hand and crushed but slowly and painfully.

I opened my mouth, I still wanted to tell him even though I was in pain and crying, I still wanted to share the good news.

“Alpha Jethro—-”

“Shut up…!” He roared and released inside her. My legs rooted to the ground when he finally turned to me with a devilish smirk on his face.

Beta Erisia sat up on the bed sweating profusely as she raised herself further to plant a kiss on Alpha Jethro's forehead. Something I have never done before. I gulped and wanted to just share the good news. So I started again,

“Alpha Jethro, at the hosp—”

“I told you to get the fuck out and you still stood there? You wish to sleep another few days in the hospital again, right?” He asked, ready to get up from the bed to beat me, I guess but Beta Erisia held him back.

“What's the use?” She asked him, “You have seen that she's completely useless and you still keep her. What for? Just reject the barren bitch and let her go”

“I'm not—” But Alpha Jethro cut me off his jaws clenched, his dark dangerous eyes on me as he said,

“She is my slave,” Alpha Jethro backed me. My hand formed a fist, If pain really could cause my wolf to surface then this was it. This was the time for my wolf to surface because I was too pained.

“Slave doesn't have to share the mate bond. As you can see, she's pained. Set her free, let her go.” she whispered to Alpha Jethro.

I knew it was for her own good is why she was saying this so I shook my head and to my surprise, Alpha Jethro shook his head negatively as well

“No,” he said and I almost smiled until the next words caused my heart to tremble further, “She will suffer. For every pain the mate bond is to give to her, I want her to feel it. I want to inflict so much pain on her that she will ask for death and death will run away from her,” He murmured to me

“Why?” I asked, trembling in pain, tears running out of my eyes. I have never done anything wrong to him. I don't even know what task my father was doing for him before he died. He had said it was nothing bad so why does he hate me so much? What did I do?

Doesn't an omega have the right to live her life? Is that the reason he has so much hatred for me?

“Because you deserve it. You are my slave, a pitiful omega slave,” he replied, “Now, get lost before I make you,”

“But I have something to tell you, the doctor—-”

“Get out, Anah” Beta Erisia snapped. With my hands clenched in a fist, I said again,

“But I have something to tell him”

“I do not want to hear you or see your ugly face. Get out, Erisia come,” his voice began softly as he said the last statement.

I watched the naked Erisia walk back from me to Alpha Jethro and sit on his stomach.

My gaze at Alpha Jethro hardened, and the pain switched to anger, he didn't even care about me. I was here and he wanted to…

Molding my fingers into a fist, I turned around, away from him and away from everything that had to do with him and his pack. I slowly in anger walked out of the room. I didn't stop as my brain rewinded everything that happened and replayed it in my head.

I walked back out of the pack house and walked past the training ground again, they were calling to me but I didn't respond to any of them including Sir Nelson.

All I could think of was to complete what was so difficult for the moon goddess to do all these while. Since she cannot take my life, I'll help her do it. I wanted to die yet she gave me another life inside me, now it will have to come with me.

As if finally accepting what it is that my heart has come to accept, I began to run. I ran so fast that my legs began to hurt. I ran into the forest and didn't stop until I got to the cliff.

I fell down on the ground and cried,

“Goddess why?! Don't I deserve happiness? Am I cursed?” I kept screaming and asking so many questions that I knew very well that the moon goddess would not give an answer. Not even one.

This wasn't the first time I was asking you these questions and this is definitely not the first time she was snubbing me. She enjoys doing it, and not for once has she answered my prayer.

“You hate me so much you made me an omega and dropped me easily at the hands of Alpha Jethro by making him my mate. I thought I had seen worse, you made him cause me so much pain by allowing him to sleep with someone else when the mate bond is still there. Why do you hate me?!” I screamed, and my voice echoed.

“Why don't you care? Didn't you create me?!” My hand began to pound on my chest as I hit it hard.

“Why don't you just kill me, strike me dead so I don't have to do it myself? Strike me dead now!” I screamed.

As always, she didn't respond. Nothing was happening so I stood up, my fingers clenched into fists,

“Since you're a dumb and powerless goddess, I am going to do the job myself. I'll help you do what you can't! At least, I'll be able to do one thing that signifies my strength!”

I was going to end my life, I closed my eyes and began to move slowly towards the cliff. I eventually reached the cliff, and when my eyes saw the depth of it, I almost lost my footing. Fear gripped me as I staggered back a bit.

My body was trembling profusely, that was deep. I'm going to jump and die. I'll do it, I can't bear to bring my child into a world of suffering. What can I offer? What can a mere slave and sex toy offer another being?

Even with all these thoughts, my hand refuses to leave my stomach. Tears rolled down my cheeks knowing that ending my life would end its too… the baby.

I closed my eyes and then opened them again with determination ready to do the needful when I heard from within me,

“Let's shift, I want to come out” I heard my wolf say and I furrowed my brows. So I have a wolf?

“Oh, so you can talk?” I asked her. Since I had a wolf, she doesn't talk. She is a sadist and a quiet loner, a coward that's refusing to show herself to anyone. Very annoying

She didn't answer my question but suddenly I felt the pain again, the pain of my bones cracking. Looking down at my fingers, I watched my claws shooting out and my canines growing larger.

Suddenly, I was feeling the change and shift. My body began to break and fur appeared in place of my fair skin. This is unbelievable… How's this possible? After so many times of trying. Soon, I was on four!

Wow!

I'm a wolf! I have a wolf! I twirl and turn around in excitement looking at my body. Sir Nelson needs to hear and see me now! I can now shift into my wolf form.

Excitement bubbling in her heart, I was about to turn around to head back to the training ground when I felt a figure behind me, before I could look at who it was, the person pushed me too hard from behind.

In fear, my wolf cower caused me to shift back into my human form as my leg tripped and I reached for something, anything so I didn't fall but there was none.

“No!” I screamed so loudly as I fell.

I fell down, the sound of the laughter of whosoever pushed me resounded in my ears even until I fell into the water. The water pierced my skin so hard that it was like swords piercing through every part of my skin. The pain was unbearable as tears rolled down my eyes.

As I slowly began to give up, my wolf growling in pain, my hands reached for my stomach. I could clearly smell blood and I knew it was mine. Not only my blood but also tears mixed with the water.

Even as life slipped away from me, I couldn't help but think who would have wanted me dead. Pushing me deliberately to fall down the cliff.

“Moon goddess. I know you never answer my requests," She said to herself as she gave up herself for the water to take, "But please listen to this once, I'm going to appreciate it. Help me get revenge on the person who did this and every other person who caused this to me in the first place directly or indirectly."

With those words, I shut my eyes and allowed the world to take me. There was no life as useless as mine. A slave, a sex toy to the Alpha, one whom the world thinks is a wolf-less wolf.